the new manuscript started in poland and picked up more steam in London. Now I am 50 pages in. It is about the eye. A battle between the eye and the ear.
i want to be.
Try to language my way back into my body.
Words make us conscious.
I wanna be less self-conscious.
Both alcohol and writing make me less conscious.
Writing is the better obsession!!!
not because it is healthy.
I mean who knows if it is healthy.
Just a better option.
And I need that kick, that energy, that rawness, that feeling, however short-lived, of creating some small space in which I can recreate.
Reading, writing, awareness, art.
That ain't no freedom speech
It's the real thing.
There is stuff happening below capitalism and careerism.